RUOK? Day

So I woke up this morning, showered, got dressed, went to have breakfast, and then when I looked at the TV, there was a news report about RUOK? Day, which I have never heard of until now.  It's a day where you take the time to talk to someone you care about and start a conversation, asking if they are okay.  The whole point of this day is to help prevent suicide, and I think this is a really great way to do that.

To me, I think the best thing for someone with depression is for them to have a support system - someone they can talk to regularly, someone can rely on.

In writing this, I'm suddenly thinking about my friend, Bella (not her real name).  We stopped talking 6 months ago, and then the other day, she text me.  With that first conversation, I remembered the reason why we stopped talking - it was because I was sick of her complaining to me and telling me all of her problems.

She told me two days ago that she had depression, and we haven't talked since.  I was thinking: 'I really don't have time to deal with this.  I only have a couple of weeks until exams, and I can't afford to let my focus down'.

I realised this morning that I'm a bitch.

Rather than thinking this, I should be helping her out, be her support system.  Although we haven't talked in ages, she's obviously text me as a last resort so she can have someone to help her through it.  It's going to be hard for with exams, but I think that I can do it!  I will make sure that I will.  To be honest, I'm scared of doing this - I have no idea how to comfort someone, and although I'm not depressed, I have breakdowns practically all the time, so it's not like I'm a strong person to take all of this.  But I will try, and that is all that matters.