Influenced By Bad Experiences

I have a sister that is 6 years older then me, and the things that I get to experience really are based on her experiences.  Let's give some examples first:

• I can't go on real Leavers this year because my sister called up half way through crying and asked mum to pick her up.
• I can't go out with an older guy (and i have been asked out by three older people who I definitely did know and like) because my sister, when she was my age (16), went out with a 23 year old and had a bad experience.  And my guys weren't even that old!
• I don't have freedom - I can't go out to parties, and I can't stay home on my own for the weekend.

I'm so sick of this!  I understand where my mother is coming from and all, but it's a little bit frustrating.  Me and my sister are different people, and we take different situations differently.  Why should I have to suffer from my sister's bad experiences?!

I broke up with my boyfriend because I was afraid that my mother would find out that he's older.  This is a guy that I really like, and I miss him so freaking much, and I know he really loved me and I just want to talk to him again!  It's not like he's some crazy stalker or anything!

We met in January last year.  We only started dating in March.  I knew him pretty damn well, and I trusted him.  And I really, really like him, it's insane!

And everything is going wrong because of my mother.

I'm probably going to regret posting this, but it was good getting it out.

Pottermore - A Quick Review

Well, I'm not going to say anything about it really, to tell the truth.  All I can say that it is done really well, and it has impressed me greatly.  The artwork is amazing, and the graphics are done well.  As for activities, I haven't got the hang of them yet - they are rather difficult until you get a lot of practise.

Reading the extras from JK Rowling is amazing, but I don't recommend that you do what I did.  I got my email late at night and was desperate to figure out what house I was in.  I skipped over reading the extras, getting each chapter out of the way as quickly as possible.

I would also recommend the book while you're going through Pottermore, which would be a much better experience than mine!

In other news... there's nothing really, I just wanted to give a quick update.

Monday's are my worst days, because I have Maths and English then two free periods in a row after lunch before school ends.  After school, I stay behind for Maths tutoring.  Then on Tuesday I have another free period first thing.

I must say that my motivation runs incredibly low, but I really must at least do SOMETHING.  So I shall be off.

Books. Lots of Them.

I love reading - simple as that - but there is a problem where I have a whole shelf of books, but with half completed series.  The only finished series' that I have are Harry Potter, Twilight (yes, there was a time where I loved it and I can't stand to throw ANY book away) and the Hunger Games.

So my mission is to re-read all these series, and then get the final books.

So far, I have finished the Fallen series and plan to get the final book next year.  Yesterday I almost finished Evermore, the first book in the Immortals series.  I have Blue Moon and recently (sour-of-the-moment) bought the latest book, Shadowland.  I still have to complete the House of Night series, the Shiver series, the Evernight series (those last two were just the names of the first books) and of course I have to buy the rest of the volumes of Vampire Knight.

There is so many books that I need to buy, and I don't have enough money to do so.  I guess it is going to take me a while to finish of these.  Haha.

And I still have study, work and my sister's scarf to knit before October!

Oh, I also got into Pottermore the other day.  I am not happy, because I was sorted into Gryffindor.  I know that most people would be happy about that, but I was hoping for Slytherin and then Hufflepuff for my next choice... but I guess that's who I really am - JKR says so.

It kind of sucks because I also just bought Slytherin robes online, and I've already knitted myself a Slytherin scarf.

But oh well.  After I finish my sister's, I'll make my bestie a Hufflpuff one then knit myself a Gryffindor scarf. *le sigh*

Anyway, I should be off or I will be running late to school!

It's Definitely Been A While

It's been about a week since I last posted, and I would like to apologise for that.  I would make an excuse of being WAAAAAAAY too busy, but the truth is that I have just been freaking lazy!

I have to say that today has been one of the greatest that I have had in a while, because I went on a helicopter ride, and all was well!

Haha, so last year I was doing Aviation, and then I decided that I would drop the subject.  So this year I am doing free period instead and I just sit in the Aviation class anyway.  The topic that the class are doing at the moment are helicopters - it's only a small part - and the teacher decided that he would spend the budget on bringing a helicopter to school so the class could learn about them then go for a ride.

Then the teacher turned to me and asked if I wanted to come along too!

So I missed out on half my classes today and there were about 10 of us all up that sort of hung around the oval, eating icy poles and drinking fizzy drinks (that bwahl provided - he is freaking awesome) and we took turns, 3 at a time, going in the helicopter and going for a 20 minute flight up the coast.

And the guy flying was young, single and absolutely gorgeous.

Anyway, I have some pictures here if you want to see!

So this photo here - the camera is pointing straight out the window... we were on the side, and I must say when it first happened I was shitting myself, because the door is mostly glass, and also the front part is all glass.  It's an amazing feeling actually.  The best part about it.  Oh, this is Hilary's Boat Harbour, by the way.  Here there is a water park that consists of three water slides, trampolines and a mini golf course - nothing spectacular.

And this is our second school over - yes, it landed at our school.

I must say that this was an amazing experience - although it isn't as good as flying a plane.  Yes, I have flown one - more on that later.

I'll see you!

10th Time Lucky

Everyone wants a fresh start, they want to try something new or they want to change themselves.  In most cases, this doesn't work, and the most classic example is trying to be more healthy.

I don't know how many times I have told myself that I will become fit, that I will try to boost my fitness levels during the off season.  I want to be able to jog, look good in a bikini (yeah right... like that will happen), but it never works.  After a day of eating healthy, spending half an hour jogging (or trying to), it just stops.  My laziness, lack of motivation and love of junk food takes over.  I go back to right where I started.

But this time I have some sort of motivation, and that is the cruise to Bali that I am going on with my dad's side of the family.  Summer, hot, beach, gorgeous Indo guys.  That is all the motivation I need.

To make it all better, my mother and my cousin are feeling the same.  My mum wants to lose weight and my cousin wants to be more toned so she can get a guy.  It's the perfect opportunity!  Everyone knows that it is better doing things with support, and it also gives me a reason to really try hard - I don't want to disappoint mum and Crin.

There's also something else.  I am going to make another blog, and this will be where I keep all the details of my progress - what I eat, what I do.  Again, it's like having more than one person doing it with me - I don't want to feel the guilt when I'm typing that I am not really trying.

So right after I finish this post, I will be making the blog.

Actually... that would be right now!

Chick Flicks...

The most depressing thing, yet so addicting.  Not even just chick flicks, but movies with happy endings.  I REALLY want a happy ending... I REALLY wish that life could be like a movie.  I know that is never going to happen.

I want a boyfriend, and I want to be happy with him.  I want him to be taller than me for once.  I want him to be gorgeous, with nice arms, who sort of takes charge.  I want us to be cutesy together, sweet.

Like... at the end of She's The Man, and Viola and Duke are at soccer training, and he lifts her up and they are both laughing and being happy.  I desperately want that!

Yeah... you know what I've just been watching.

I just want the happy movie-like ending.  I don't like reality.  With reality there is school, work, money issues, fights.  I'm really not liking it.  I mean, there are the good times, but...

I think that I'm just asking for too much, you know?  I'm expecting something amazing, so nothing can live up to my expectations.  This is why I watch movies, and why I read books!  It's why I write!  I want something that I will never be able to have.

But you never know - I am going on that cruise to Bali in January.  Maybe I will meet my perfect guy there!

Exercise and Lack of Distractions

The answer to all procrastination and motivation issues when doing homework or study.

I must say that the thing to get you started with homework is just shut everything off, put all distractions (novels, laptops, phones, iPods even!) into a completely different room, close the door and just get started!

I must say that I did this, and it worked.  I just told myself 'hey... just stop... do something, fat arse'.

So, I did some Zumba with my mum and started studying for my Biology test tomorrow.

This is my first break, and I must say that I am proud of myself!  It's true when they say that healthy eating and exercise makes you happier and more motivated.  Just go get out and do it!  Don't even think, just get up and do something.  It works a charm.

And I even offered to help my mum clean the kitchen after dinner, without even thinking.

Fuck yeah, I feel so damn good now!

Except for this head ache... I'll take some panadol or something then get back to it!

That's the end of my quick post for now!

Weekend

I can't really say that this has been the most productive weekend I've ever had.  Basically it involved eating, watching Grey's Anatomy while in bed (effing scratched DVD... now I can't watch the last season seven episodes), an hour of physical exercise... and meeting a family member I had never really knew even existed.

My Aunty Vikki (who is really my great aunt) came to watch my netball game because she needed to get away from her son and his ex.  There have been big problems involving Aunty Vikki's grandson involving the crazy ex-wife, but I'm not going to get into that.

Anyway, she came to my netball game and all was well... but at the end of the game there was a kid sitting with my Aunt and mum who appeared out of nowhere.  Apparently this lady called Julia or something dropped him off.

But this is the grandson, and he's staying with my Aunt for a while or something.  His name is Dylan, apparently.  He's 14 and... I don't even know.

He's a nice kid, he really is!  And I just feel really bad for him because he has to go through so much crap with his parents and court orders and crap like that.  Some people shouldn't deserve things like this, especially teens.  I mean, we are all just trying to get through life, growing up and it shouldn't  have to be made any harder because of some crazy-ass mother.

I really shouldn't be sticking my nose into stuff that isn't my business and I don't even know or understand the whole story, so I will just be moving on!

Netball was great.  We were playing another team from our club, and it was a really really tough game!  We thrashed them last time, but during this game there was illness and injuries, and it was just insane!  We only lost by a goal.

We were down to only seven players because one girl had a virus.  She ended up coming down to watch and support us.  One girl was hung over from the night before, even though we were specifically told not to go out (I mean seriously, this girl is an idiot who puts herself before others - no offense, this girl is really nice and funny and just kind hearted, but she shouldn't let her team down by going out every Friday before the game).  Lastly there was one girl who was complaining of a sore ankle.

All was cool in the first quarter, but then the girl with the sore ankle has a fall and does some real damage to it... so she can't play, has to be taken off.

The girl with the virus ends up having to play.  She borrows a uniform off of her cousin (who plays for another team in the club) and goes on court.

By half time this girl is in tears and she can't breathe, so we have to switch our positions, and that REALLY screws up the play.

I'm surprised we only lost by one goal.

It's obvious we're most likely going to be in the grand final, and I'm freaking excited!

So that's my weekend... well, I went to a party today, but let's not even go there.  I will save that for my next post.

Beginning of the End

So while everyone in the Northern Hemisphere is having their first day of school, Australians are right in the middle of the school year, and concerning students who are in their last year of school, things run a hell of a lot differently.

For most students, school ends in about 17 weeks (not including the holidays), but for year 12's, we finish in 7 weeks.

It's a really scary thought.

We've started getting our TISC forms and graduation information.  Groups have started organising Leavers (more on that later) and the Leavers Book committee and the Leavers Video committee have already started doing their work.

The most scary part about all this is deciding what to do when I graduate, and if my exam results give me the outcome I want.  We have to take a set of exams and then we get an ATAR, which is a mark that gets you into university.

So... at the end of October, I graduate, and then the day after (on a Saturday, grrrrr) I have my first exam.  And then it finally all ends just before my birthday!  All is well!

Graduation is the best and worst thing to happen in your school career.

During the last week of school, the year 12's do different things on different days.  At my school, we have gender swap day, so we swap our uniforms around.  On the second last day, we have muck up day.  This used to be a day where we would pull pranks and dress up, but the pranks were banned after someone a few years ago hand put all the lunch benches on top the school buildings.  That was what I heard at least.

We still pull pranks, and we still dress up.  I plan on going as a Hogwarts student.

My group of friends have sort of chosen our costumes.  It's just a joke, it's not really going to happen.  I'm going to be the slutty Slytherin, one will be horny Hufflepuff, grinding Gryffindor and racy Ravenclaw.

Haha, it's going to be good :)

Then on the final day, we have the Valedictory Assembly.  This is where the school says good bye to us, and there's speeches and such.  After that we have morning tea with our parents and family, and then as tradition goes, the year 12's spend the rest of the day at the beach partying.

And then exams...

I'm effing screwed...

This Is Me

Perth isn't any place special.  It's definitely nothing like Hollywood or London, not even like Sydney!  No, we're the most isolated city in the world, so nothing interesting happens here.

We do have our ups and downs, and I must say that we mostly have our downs.  Not many bands or artists come here - it's too much hassle because there isn't enough people and barely any locations that are big enough.

I think the biggest concerts that I have been to were P!nk and Kiss.

The tourist attractions aren't that great.  There's a couple of national parks, a bell tower, the Fremantle prison (which isn't even in the city of Perth), and we only have Adventure World and two water parks that I know of.  No, you need to go to the Gold Coast for that.

We're a lonely city - nothing much to do - but this is home.

And we gave the world Heath Ledger.  May he rest in peace.

I go to a 'low fee' private school that's Anglican based.  I must admit that it is incredibly low fee.  Standards high enough to not have many beat ups and school yard fights, yet not so high as to have rich snobs (well, most of the time).  I'm in my last year of school, struggling to raise my exam marks.  Funnily enough, my English mark is letting me down, but that is because the exam mark is scaled down.

More on that later.

I have my goals - I want to get into Murdoch, do a double major in Biological Sciences and Conservation and Wildlife Biology.  I don't know what I want to do after that or if this is the right choice for me, but it's a start.

I have boy issues, friends at school, school problems, poor social schools, self confidence issues.

I live a normal life, just an ordinary girl.